"He's Almighty. He's the one who will always be with you and will always help you.", mother told me once upon a time, when I was a child, and I, being too naive that time, believed it blindly.
But as I got exposed to the outside world, I came to know that different people used to call different Gods in time of need. I thought that there was a system of getting your work done quickly and you called God in that way. But mom explained me beautifully that there are different religions and different people pray to different Gods.
And mom told me one thing, "Never question religion or things related to that! There is no Why in religion. He is your God, pray to him and respect him, that's it."
So whenever I used to be in problem from that day, I used to pray to my Almighty for help, instead of trying to solve the problem myself. I didn't have even the slightest idea that this was going to land me in very serious problem in future. How I regret now not questioning my mother that time. How, if I had questioned her then, I could have solved my problems myself.
Another thing my mother told me was that God resides in Temple and that whoever visits the temple doesn't come home empty-handed. She also told me that priests are the closest to God and also not to disrespect them. She gave me many examples of how God helped the persons in need of help and she also told me the story of Prahalad and how God is everywhere.
Today, as I lie in the hospital bed, in ICU, severely burnt, being unable to even move a muscle, with just my consciousness, after being raped and being semi-burnt in a temple, I try to open my mouth and question mom, "Mom where is God? Why didn't he come out of his Idol, while I was looking at him continuously, and helped me? Did I lack in my devotion somewhere? Is God really listening to me?"
Ironically, mom is still praying to God to save me. I try to laugh, but I can't. I can't even see properly.
It's evident that I'm going to die, andmaybe, people will want justice for me for sometimes, I'll be used as a political propaganda for sometime and then everything will be forgotten again and the rapists will return to do Pooja as they did earlier.nd then everything will be forgotten again; But you have enough time, now also. Don't fall for the illusion. You are your own Almighty. Fight your problems yourselves. Believe in yourself, however hard the problem maybe, you can solve it. Don't feel sad for me.
